Schedule God too

I know I've been busy, but being sick last week (hospital sick) kinda reminded me of an old lesson sometimes i just haven't learned yet. Schedule God too. So often I get so busy, often with things i try to explain as "out of my control" and i simply run out of time. Homework, church, music things, finacial things, work, all of these things take time and often demand the time I have, but I do the deciding and in the end it is me who gives my time. When I don't give enough time for God every day, i find myself slipping. Maybe it's not a big deal today, or tomorrow, or even next week, but in a month or two months i soon find I have left my God time for church.

You can't expect to meet God at church if we do not meet him daily. We gather at church to celebrate God's godness, to tell him, hey - you are amazing and i thank you for that. If we don't have him in our lives not only do we fall apart but we can't say "God you're amazing" truely, we don't really know him. And the refocusing doesn't happen, nor do we feel better. Church becomes another thing on our to do list. We are missing the joy and the goodness. We are missing the hugs and the refreshment our souls need. When I forget this, and i miss it, my body fights on for awhile, then bad things pile up. All the sudden it just seems like everything is due and nothing is done. My soul just isn't feed, and I am not in an attitude to let God help. I must do it. This is pride. Then i fall. Most often it is me getting sick (like i was last week) where I am forced for at least a day to rest. Sometimes it is me relapsing to some of my old "bad habits". Stress coping things i used to do, my cutting, or my ED (eating disorder), things that I can control when I feel my world out of control.

I am coming into this monday head on, ready and rested with God by my side. Writing my schedule for the week, and including prayer and quiet time with God. Make sure you smile alot, and take the time to rest with God.