Warmth

I've been getting sick now for a couple days, but this morning was just miserable. I didn't want to get out of bed, my head hurt, my throat is sore, and i'm just dragging. However when I was walking outside in the warm sunshine things didn't seem so bad. I'm still sick and feeling icky - but that warmth was uplifting.

What warms you from the inside out? A good book and a cup of coffee? A long conversation with a friend? A quiet evening on the couch with your favorite movie? Sitting in a canoe early in the morning watching the sun rise and waiting for a fish to bite?

There are many things which give us warmth in many ways. These little uplifting moments brighten our days and make a sometimes gray world seem brighter. God often blesses us in ways which I don't know that I always see or recognize, but sometimes that little warmth can turn around an otherwise bad day.


God Bless

What does nature mean to you?

Studing Natural Resources has given me a different appreciation for nature and the beautiful creation God has provided for us. Sometimes we are inspired by a breaktaking view, sometimes we are invigorated by an exciting lightning storm, and sometimes we are calmed by a reflective moment near a quiet stream. Journalling in nature is a great way to connect with is as is outdoor activities of all sorts.

What does nature mean to you?

God Bless,
your sister in Christ~Erin

Rain

There is a time for everything, even if it does not bring joy. The rain is often sad and lonely however misunderstood. It refreshes new life and brings much needed water to the outside world. Even admist the gray clounds, mist, and rain drops reflect on how life is so often blurred through a window. Things are not understood clearly and often thought to be something they are not. Thank you God for putting things in our path that may not be clear right now, or even wanted like this rain. Help us remember to trust you and your hand in this world. Even the rain can be beautiful.

God Bless,
your sister in Christ

Serving our persecuted brothers and sisters

I have this desire to help people. I'm not exactly sure where it all came from, but most people who know me can tell you that I'll help anyone (even people my friends/family don't always approve of...) but one group my heart especially goes out to are persecuted Christians.

There are so many stories of the horrors Christians go through abroad. Children being killed by their parents for converting, churches being burned, church leaders imprisioned and beated. All for saying I believe in Jesus. And they continue to stand and take the bad with the good. Churches are growing, people are in need of God and are being found. I only wish it was less dangerous.

I was really very interested as well as repulsed by some of the things that I read about in the Jesus Freaks series as well as documentaries you can see on TV or articles you can read online. Many places in the world have Christians suffering - China, Africa, Laos, Pakistan, are where a few of the stories I read today took place. What can we do to help serve our brothers and sisters in Christ who are persecuted abroad?

Many organizations offer ways that we can use our money to help Christians in other places. Maybe to help with cost of living or more specific uses like bibles. Often groups take mission trips or extended stays to help a community. If you choose a route like this I encourage you at if all possible to stay more than a week, or keep contact with the people you meet. People aren't intersted in having Americans come over for a week of charity and then leave feeling they have done their duty and now feel better. We need to strive to be making relationships with those we meet and keep encouraging each other when we are no longer together.

The biggest thing we can do I believe is educate people. It is commonplace for christian children and teens to be abducted in countries and forced to convert or die. We worry about our children catching the flu or who they choose as friends! We need to help people to know and if possible experience (interactive games/presentations are great *persecution day) the hardships of our christian brothers and sisters. With great knowledge comes great responsibility. The more you know about what is happening in Darfur, China, or a million other places in the world the more you can relate and serve the needs present.

I encourage you to pray for those less fortunate than yourself. Ask God to protect them and give them courage to live out his will in their hardships.

God Bless,
your sister in Christ~Erin

One

So many thoughts run through my head in a day, I don't know what I would do if I couldn't write them down. Sometimes I wonder if anyone sees or notices any of the entries here. I am just one person, no one great or famous, but just me. Yet I am one person set on making a difference in the world.

I have been struggling lately for the want of ... acceptance maybe? acknowledgement? I'm not really sure really. I am noticed and loved by those whom I love around me, and truely I am blessed yet I have this disire for more. The crazy thing is I don't know if I can even handle more. What is the drive in me to get out there, do something, help someone? I can't even get all of my homework done on time...

I love this quote by Helen Keller, "I am only one, but I am one. I can not do everything, but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything I will not refuse to do the something I can do."

Our campus ministry needs leadership, love, God, and more students. Our church needs programming for young adults. Our young women need to know they are loved, special, and wanted. I see so many needs, and have so many needs of my own, where do I go from here?

I am hopeful that things will happen, and i'll continue to work on the needs God places before me as they come. One grain of rice can tip the scale and I encourage others to continue on with the work God has sent in front of you. I pray for your strength and courage as well as your endurance for we all know that life isn't easy, but it is worth it.

Much love,
God Bless,
your sister in Christ~Erin

Make them hear you

I had an interesting conversation with a friend today about what we can do with our campus ministry. Many campus ministries are having a difficult time gaining members or reaching out to other students.

A song comes to mind from the musical Ragtime. One of the main characters "Coalhouse" sings "Make them hear you" when he is encouraging his friends to not let the issue at hand just die. It is easy to follow a leader, but what can YOU do to make a difference, is what the song focuses on. (in the early 1900s the issue is racism and unfair/unjust treatment of african americans). He says your sword can be a sermon or the power of the pen, teach every child to raise his voice and then my brothers then - will justic be demanded by ten million rightous men, make them hear you, make them hear you!

Our campus ministry likes to focus on social justice and taking action in our community. How can we bring about awareness and can we make others hear us? Sure, but I think the real issue is can we make others care?

to hear the song try this link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nUkwQdHpLtk

Jesus said in the great commission, go out and make disciples. How do we accomplish this?

I wish you the peace of Christ and wisdom to spread his word,
your sister in Christ~Erin

I wish you Enough

I recieved this in an e-mail not too long ago and really fell in love with it. It reminds me of Ephesians where we are given the advice that there is a time for everything.

Lately I have not been patient. I want to graduate. I want to move into town. I want to get married and have kids. I want to ______! There never seems to be an end to my list and I never seem to have enough I have or take the time to appreciate what it going on right in front of me.

In all the love that I can give to you my friend, I wish you these things and I thank God for all of the blessings including HIS time to my life.

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how
gray the day may appear.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and
everlasting.

I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life
may appear bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.


God Bless,
your sister in Christ~Erin

Prophet

When I hear the word Prophet, I think of the great stories I have heard about Isaiah and Jeremiah, Jonah and Moses. Big important . . . men. Leaders, sometimes anyway. People that were closely connected to God and helped to spread his word (and sometimes his anger) to the people. Yet in the past few years this word has often been connected with me.

The first time was near the end of our youth disciple bible study. An interesting experience, but we'll save that for another time. Many of my friends and I had taken it together and we were sharing what spritual gifts we saw in each other. Several people had shared that they felt I had the gift of a prophet. This really surprised me. I didn't really understand what it was or why people saw this in me. So I kinda just let it go.

A little while ago I found a young adult methodist site with The Upper Room. There are some great blogs, devotions, and tons of resources online specifically geared towards young adults. I have started to be more active on this site and yesterday I found a "spritual types test". Once and a while I like to take these little quizzes, so I thought, why not? Obviously many of us are very different in our spirituality so maybe I'll be insightful. And what category did I find?

Prophet.

The other categories where sage, lover, and mystic. Here is some of what the description said.
You are a Prophet, a crusader with a kingdom spirituality. You experience God best through serving others. You value competence and knowledge, and are good at leading and influencing others. Prophets are devoted to their causes, often becoming assertive and aggressive as you implement a vision of the world as God's kingdom on earth. You are our heroic change agents and we admire you for that. Single-minded and deeply focused, you aren't content until society has been transformed.
Prophets are the least represented spiritual type in the general population. You also are the hardest spiritual type to be around, mainly because you make the rest of us feel guilty for not having the same zeal for change that you do. We admire you for sacrificing your personal life for your hope of the kingdom realized on earth, but we are uncomfortable around martyrs.

You have a courageous and sturdy idealism that takes responsibility for change. But, your passion for transforming society can lead you to become impatient with congregations and their perceived lack of concern. You fit best in a hospitable, like-minded community that shares your vision.

Nevertheless, be careful not to become so involved in your cause that you neglect your inner life. Attend as much to your inner life as outer life. One will nourish the other.

Like many descriptions I thought there were just alot of fancy words that everyone likes to hear and think of themselves. But as I read the other descriptions and took the quix again with some different answers I came up with the same result that I feel really does fit me.

Perhaps this is something we need to focus more on in general. How are we as a people of God encouraging each others gifts? How are we providing outlets for different types of spirituality? Do we even talk about it?

Lord, I pray for understanding and guidence as I continue to seek you and find where you have use for me. I also pray for others, that they also connect within a community that encourages them and their relationship with you.

God Bless,
your sister in Christ~Erin

Jeremiah one of my favorite prophets (he was young and passionate!) says this in Chapter 29:10a-12 I will come to you and fulfill my gracious promise to bring you back to this place. 11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.

check it out at www.methodx.org

Insignificant

I get an online devotional from The Upstairs Room (a methodist devo magazine) in my e-mail everyday. Like anything, sometimes they are great and sometimes I don't connect with them. I really liked the message in todays however. Often as I struggle to try and make a difference in the world I feel completly insignificant. Like there is nothing I can possibly do to make anything any better. Yet the message in this devotional is very simple and heart warming. God has made me and chosen me for specific things in the world and what I do makes a difference to him.

THE VALUE OF OUR WORK
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Acts 1:21-26 (NRSV)

So one of the men who have accompanied us during all the time that the Lord Jesus went in and out among us, beginning from the baptism of John until the day when he was taken up from us--one of these must become a witness with us to his resurrection." So they proposed two, Joseph called Barsabbas, who was also known as Justus, and Matthias. Then they prayed and said, "Lord, you know everyone's heart. Show us which one of these two you have chosen to take the place in this ministry and apostleship from which Judas turned aside to go to his own place." And they cast lots for them, and the lot fell on Matthias; and he was added to the eleven apostles.

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Whatever your task, put yourselves into it, as done for the Lord . . . since you know that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward; you serve the Lord Christ.
- Colossians 3:23-24 (NRSV)
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SCRIPTURE mentions Matthias, the apostle who took Judas Iscariot's place, only once. Christians today remember him because five short verses in Acts describe the apostles casting lots to discover whom God would select to complete their number. Unlike the towering figures of Peter and Paul, we know nothing about Matthias or his accomplishments after becoming an apostle. Some might question whether he did anything significant, since he is not mentioned again.

We all have moments when we question the value of our work for Christ. We praise God for missionaries and for Christians who care for the sick, but we may wonder how our contributions can ever compare to their achievements. When I have these thoughts, the example of Matthias comforts me. God knew Matthias's heart and made him an apostle. Though Matthias did not win acclaim, he was chosen by God to fill a particular role.

As Christians, we can be sure God also has work for each of us. Whether we win wide acclaim or are known only by a few, our work's true value is found in our faithfulness.
written by Matthew Ross

Hope you enjoyed this. The upper room has lots to offer including a newer young adult area, MethodX. Check it out, I like it. (www.methodx.org)
God Bless,
your sister in Christ
~Erin

Focus

I find it extremly hard some days to focus on any one thing. There are so many thougts flooding through my mind that I often waste so much time doing what ends up to be well... nothing.
Still at the beginning of a new year it is at time for trying new things, getting into new grooves, making an effort to do things better. I have been trying to get in a daily devotional/prayer time yet so often I fail to do it. There are other things I have been better at - eating breakfast, doing some leisure reading before bed, but the God time is just not something I can ever seem to get focused on.
I put a picture of a candle because it means so many different things. Hope, light, warmth, yet all so focused in the one flame. When I light a candle I do much better at focusing on God. To try and quiet my mind and my spirit. Let go of my concerns and my worries and let God in.
The delima I feel like I face every day is when I do get to that relaxed state of letting God into my life, how do I keep it? A thought I so often get caught up on is from John 15 and also mentioned in Pauls letters to the Corinthians. The idea that we live in the world, but we must not be (or behave) of the world. That we as christians are different. The only way this difference is acheived is if we keep that presence of God with us and let him live through us. Sounds so great and wonderful, yet we all know how easy it is to get caught up in things of this world.
So i reflect on the candle, and pray for God to be with me, as I also pray he is with you.

God Bless,
your sister in Christ
Erin

Technology ?!?

SO many conversations have come up lately wondering if technology is a good thing or a bad thing... no one seems to know. Our younger generations can't seem to live "unplugged". Assignments are given online and expected to be printed and brought to class or simply handed in online making it neccessary to have a computer with internet access for education. Communication has gone from home phones to cell phones to email to instant messenging and networking sites therefore to stay in touch with anyone the fastest and most convient way is online. Then there is the personal comforts of text messenging, digital cameras, and ipods which can now be obtained all in one gaget! We can all see great advatages in these changes, but probably also problems.

Just some interesting things I think about as I surf other blogs and sites. I often struggle as a young adult in the church feeling like there aren't many around me "like me". But as I over analyze everything (i know i know, but i can't help it) I wonder it has anything to do with our poor personal communication skills? I find hope in sites online where there seem to be people who are excited about their faith and young.

Sigh, like most hard topics I don't think there is an answer. However, one thing I learned as a young child, everything in moderation - technology may be like chocolate cake, fabulous and wonderful but not the relational nutrition that comes from a good dinner.

God Bless,
Erin
your sister in Christ

1 Timothy 4:12 (paraphrased) Don't let them put you down just because your are younger! But love them and set an example in the faith with your actions of love, purity, honesty, and integrity.

Making a Difference

Oh the world of challenges. I have spent the last hour on a variety of Methodist sites just trying to wrap my head around any resources I can use to help get our Wesley Foundation off the ground. Yesterday at church I felt God challenging me again, that now I'm comfortably settled in here it's time to get stuff going again.

In my last community, it didn't take long before I was acustomed to the church, campus ministry, and staring a youth ministry. So many people were excited and God was present. It was beautiful - challenging, yet beautiful.

However I try to keep the focus on God and not myself, but I feel a calling to do something in my new community of Stevens Point, Wi. I have already begun teaching sunday school and getting aquainted with other church members, there is already a youth ministry in progress, and there is a form of a campus ministry entitled "Wesley Society".

I love being Methodist and I love reaching out to others providing (especially to young people) an open environment where they can openly ask questions about faith and their beliefs and thoughts in the world. Saddly our churches do not often offer this opened enviornment that our young people so desperatley need. I do not always know how I feel about faith or God or how social issues fit into my beliefs and I need to have open discussion about these questions.

I also feel that besides an open warm loving environment our young people need to be challenged. Mind, body, and Spirit. Bible studies!! Even if they are by e-mail or blogs or once a week we need to be keeping our young people in the word. Service- we are blessed with so much more than the rest of the world and even as a poor college student I have alot to give. My time, my effort, my prayers, my presence, my encouragement, and I will work for food! Bring on the work projects! Spirit, I also feel that it is important to help other young people find a worship opportunity that helps them feel the spirit. Be it music, a contemporary service, art in worship, skits, dance teams, or services - it is important that our young people find a connection with worship and opportunities to serve here.

Yes this can be alot of work leading a group for young people. Yes young people are unpridictable in when and where and how often they can meet. So what if many of us are hard to pin down. There are ways to help meet the needs of our young people and most of us are not going to seek them out in the church. They need to be provided in an open flexible way that it is not intimidating. And for those out there who are trying know it takes time. It takes about 3 years for a program to get off it's feet, so keep at it! Keep praying, and keep asking God what he needs from us to provide ministry to our young adults.

1 Timothy 4:12
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.


So to my problems. . . (if you don't mind)
The wesley society here seems singularily focused on Peace and Social Justice. No bible study, no worship, it is not considered a campus ministry, but a special student group. Sigh, I have an issue with this. I think peace and social justice is a great focus for a group, but that was not Wesleys only focus. Peace and social justice came out of ministries. A way to express our christian love towards others and fight for their rights. A great mission but not the starting point, right?

I would like to have an online bible study (college students are busy). Set up a place to have discussion, switch it to who has what day. and keep it short and simple.

I would like to share an open meal together. Try to have a general subject of converstation (love, peace, injustice, study tips) but just time to be in christian community with each other.

I would like to join other groups on campus to reach out and do mission work. Volunteer at the salvation army, work with Habitat for Humanity, go on mission trips.

I would like to also focus on special events. Educating others about different faiths, christian views on sexuality, social issues, have open discussions with speakers who know more about topics. But other events as well such as Dinner and a Movie night, retreats, sledding extravaganzas, time to make personal relationships.

Then I notice these are all things "I" want to do, but is this what I am called to do? Sigh, I feel that this is a yes. . . God has given me the opportunities to learn about group development and human relationships and how to make them better and give people a good environment. I feel confident that he has given me this experience and knowledge so I might use it in ministry.

Hopefully the needs of young people will continue being met and cared for more than ever.

Peace
your sister in Christ,
Erin

Ephesians

Sometimes when I am doing Bible studies on my own or with a friend I like to start at chapter one of a book and read the whole thing. Today I started Ephesians. Very interesting words in that first chapter as Paul simply encourages the people. Nothing to profound or complex, just simply praising God and encouraging them to praise and bless God as well for all of the great things in their lives.

I can take a positive lesson from Paul today as well. As much as it is very important for each of us to have others in our lives that encourage us and are there for us to help us grow and pick us up when we fall, I often forget that God is there to do these things as well. He does deserve to be praised and blessed simply because he is God. He has given me more than I could ever ask for, yet somedays I am still not happy. Today I was saddened by the cold rain, waking up early, and having classes, but look at how many of those things are blessings in my life! The rain helps feed the beautiful plants and forests all around me that I like to enjoy. I get to wake up in my own bedroom in a beautiful house to prepare for a day of learning and growing. And I have some excellent classes in subjects that will lead me to a career that I love and can teach children about God everyday. and for all of this I complain?

Praise God for you are a gracious father providing us with more than we can imagine and sometimes even notice. Thank you for being there for me forever and always.

Much love,
Erin
your sister in Christ

Change, Changing, and Changeless

As a college student change is my life. I change jobs or homes or something big about every 4 months. I have just made a change in schools and am trying to adjust. Things all around me keep changing and sometimes in the river of change I just want to grab a rock and keep things the same for a minute!

Reguardless of how we feel life is forever changing around us and when we try to recreate an awesome experience from the past it almost always comes crashing down around us. Each day is different, yet sometimes can seem monotomously the same. When we get into habits we can get into ruts and sometimes lose the sense of wonder around us at the little things. This I feel is when I get the most frustrated with change.

I want to relax and hang out with friends like I used to - but I have to go meet friends. I have to go to class, but the path to class and the beauty outdoors can be a pleasant new surprise if I let it be. I can affect some change for the better just with my attitude.

The idea of a changeless God is one that has caused me some difficult thought. Here are some scriptures about it:
Numbers 23:19
God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?
1 Samuel 15:29
He who is the Glory of Israel does not lie or change his mind; for he is not a man, that he should change his mind."
Malachi 3:6
"I the LORD do not change. So you, O descendants of Jacob, are not destroyed.

and often in philosophy or theology discussions the fact that God is eternal (always was, is, and out of time) is understood as changeless, a constant.

Not sure if you can see where I struggle with this concept, but I do. At times it seems as if the God referred to in the old testament and the new are two different people. Is that not a change? To go from commanding the dystruction of whole towns or peoples to teaching a Gospel of love toward all and peace? Where the situations just so that He knew ahead of time that at this time He needed to be harsh and unforgiving while later he would choose a different path? Does He always know what the future will hold and the choices we are going to make? The ideas we will create and as a human race advance the world? Did he know of computers and airplanes and medicines?

ALl of these thoughts continue to evolve around the free will question. Do we really have free will make choices that change our future or does God know us so well that he simply knows what choices we will make?

Just some random thoughts to spread into the vast universe. God Bless you and yours,
In Peace
Erin
your sister in Christ

an ending verse
Jeremiah 33:3: "Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and show thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not."

This is St. John's Episcopal Church we stayed at on our mission trip to Ocean Springs Mississippi.

Pray

Some days I have alot to say, some days I don't. When I am bursting is where you will generally find me blogging. But the thing is. . . God doesn't just want to hear about it when I'm in trouble, or bursting with thought that I can't keep it inside. He wants to hear everything. Everyday.

One of my roomates is in a long distance relationship. She isn't able to drive right now which really keeps her from seeing him often. But that doesn't keep them from talking. We joke, but at night, it seems like she is always on the phone. They will talk at least 3 times a day. In the morning, in the evening, and to say goodnight. It's the cutest thing ever (have to admit, sometimes it's alittle neasueas). However, they make the committment to make their relationship work.

Any relationship requires work. Time and dedication is all. . . God loves us, but how can we return that love? Be there in the relationship with him. Take time to pray and listen, weather you have alot to say or not.

God Bless,
your sister in Christ

Words

We live in a culture of communication. Language is so very important, what would we do without our cell phones, e-mail, memo's (dry erase memos), or conversations? Communications Studies is an entire major in our university. It's a big deal.

But how often do we catch ourselves speaking before we think? How many times do we wish we didn't just say that? Or that someone else didn't just say that to us. It is not only in words but in tone, in conotation, in the impression given over the internet of what we understood someone's words to mean. How often are those words hurtful, condesending, or teasing and mean? How often are those words encouraging, uplifting, or just meaningful and positive?

One negative attitude can bring down 7 people around you, and it takes quite a bit to bring people out of a negative attitude. What kind of a world do we want to surround ourselves with? Do we want to be a positive influence? I've noticed that your attitude really shows through the little comments that are made. How much to we pay attention to the little things we say? I bet you can remember specifically a recent negative comment about you, but how about a positive one (or several?).

So where does our role as Christians play in the game of language? Well in Proverbs 17:27, it is written:
27Whoever restrains his words has knowledge,
and he who has a cool spirit is a man of understanding.
and in Proverbs 21:23:
23Whoever keeps his mouth and his tongue
keeps himself out of trouble.

I know my mouth gets me in trouble sometimes, or just not using my head first. God tells us that our words do make a difference and if we are wise we will think about the things we say. In Ecclesiastes chapter 3, we are reminded there is a time for everything, including being silent as well as speaking. I pray today that we all may think about the things we say and if we are being a positive influence on the people around us, or bringing others down with us.

God Bless you and yours,
In Peace~Erin

Ecclesiastes 3:7
7a time to tear, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

Prayer Requests

Ephesians 6:18ish. .. The Message
In the same way, prayer is essential. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other's spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.

We all go through ups and downs in life is it is sooo important to have friends to help you through. One of the best things we can do for friends is simply love them and be there for them. That doesn't mean giving them advice all the time, but more often listening and being a shoulder to cry on. Help them meet their needs during difficult times, and they'll help you. Eugene Peterson says "keep your eyes open" or simply be there and know what's going on.

Another thing we need to do for our friends is pray for them. Pray for them in their time of need as well as everyday. For their relationships, health, stress, whatever. But especially in the difficult times. I like how the message puts it - keep each other's spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.

Feel free to put prayer requests here. I will pray for you, and many others will to. Here are a few of my prayer requests.

*A few months ago we found out my grandfather had a tumor in his leg. He had surgery and is still slowly recovering, but tests did show the tumor was cancerous. Prayers for him and our family.

*My roomate suffers from siezures, and tomorrow woud have made 3 months without one, which is huge because it allows her to drive again. But this morning, she had another small one. They are treatable with medication, but still a very difficult thing for her to deal with. Especially with her not being able to drive. Prayers for her and her family.

*I have several young girls I talk to often who have had rough teenage years often filled with depression and many things. Prayers for them and other youth as they grow up.

*I am transferring and leaving my newly formed youth group. Prayers for the church that they will grow in Christ.

*I am going to a new camp this summer. Prayers for all summer camps and the staff and campers there.

always~
your sister in Christ~Erin

GROW

I always have good intentions for this site. . . and someday the world will have 30 hours in a day and perhaps I will live up to those dreams? Some of it doesn't bother me much, because I tend to write when I am upset, frustrated, or depressed. But this blog gets much hopes and dreams, so that's not always the case.

I was at IV (intervarsity) last night, it is a christian fellowship group on my campus. Every thursday night we have large group where we worship, play some game, listen to a speaker, and pray together. Our speaker last night was a man I have met several times, Pastor Dominick Israel. He is the Methodist pastor from St. Luke's a small dying church on the north side. Pastor Dominick is from India. He spoke about many things. .. his personal life experiences in India and other places but mainly he simply encouraged and challenged us.

He taught us two great acrynyms to help us in our daily life.
ACTS
How to pray
Adoration Confession Thanksgiving Supplication (asking, or praying for Someone else)
i learned this is confirmation as well, but i really like it. Sometimes we find it very difficult to pray, what to say? Doesn't God know?

But I really like this one
How to GROW
Go to God always/everyday!
Read the word always/everyday!
Open yourself to his work always/everyday!
Witness always/everyday!
It can often slip from us (like this blog does from you) too keep up with our daily quiet times. But how do we grow without them? How do we know God without them? How do we serve him without them? We don't. We often slowly fall into behaving in the christian way without the internal desire. We serve because it is right now because we are so joyful it simply flows out of us. We pray because we should not because we are bursting with emotion and ready to share it with our best friend. We try to save others for the kingdom when it's convient and easy for us to do instead of being in touch with God and allowing him to use us for his work. We don't save people. We never will save a single soul. God will and if he is willing, we may somehow have the opportunity to be of service for him, but we often forget why and who we do things for.

Don't forget to GROW!

God Bless!
your sister in Christ~Erin

Encouragement

I love some of the letters in the new testement, not always for what they teach, but for the example those writing it set to fellow christians to care for each other. I love keeping in touch with fellow christian friends. Hearing about the joys in their life and praying for them when things are more difficult. Here are some verses from 2 Timothy chapter 1 i really like:

Encouragement to Be Faithful

3I thank God, whom I serve, as my forefathers did, with a clear conscience, as night and day I constantly remember you in my prayers. 4Recalling your tears, I long to see you, so that I may be filled with joy. 5I have been reminded of your sincere faith, which first lived in your grandmother Lois and in your mother Eunice and, I am persuaded, now lives in you also. 6For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands. 7For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

I do thank God for my friends and unfortunatly most of them live far away. However the internet has made life a little easier to keep in touch. I love the few opportunities I get to spend time with them, and pray for them everyday thanking God for them.

It is also important to be there for friends. Not only to love them, but to be a real friend. Listen to them, help them with your experience, pray with them, and most of all affirm and encourage them! They are a beautiful child of God and do wonderful things. We each have talents and it is so important to be able to encourage each other and know we are doing well. Especially with their faith.

always praying for you!
God Bless!
your sister in Christ~Erin

Commitment

So i've taken a break. Quite a long break, but hey i'm in college and things get busy! Anyhow, I'm back! And like at the beginning of any semester I am ready to renew some commitments. Most of us have goals that we strive for to help us make our lives more meaningful, or just to get done all the things we "want" or feel we somehow must do. I have a few goals of my own as well.

* Do a personal devotion every day
* Read for fun everyday
* Write more (blogs or journal)
* Keep in touch with people
* Pray

These are specific things I want to commit to (perhaps again) that i've fallen short on. Even if no one cares, I know it helps me to write them down and I encourage you to do the same. Although I may only be 20, I do have some experience which I always try to share, mostly however I simply share my questions, thoughts, and doubts about anything that comes into my head.

Yesterday at our lunch we discussed Spiritual Growth. It is important for all of us to grow, physically, mentally, and spiritually. But how? Well exercise and a healthy diet, studying and going to school, and spending time with God. For all of us these are different, but it is important that we find our own ways that we grow spiritually. There will be periods of no growth, and short times of extreme growth, but not without the effort. I encourage you to find what helps you grow, commit to it, and find a partner or friend to keep you accountable.

Always there for you is God. I only try my best.
your sister in Christ~Erin

Light

John 12:34-36 (NRSV)

The crowd answered him, "We have heard from the law that the Messiah remains forever. How can you say that the Son of Man must be lifted up? Who is this Son of Man?" Jesus said to them, "The light is with you for a little longer. Walk while you have the light, so that the darkness may not overtake you. If you walk in the darkness, you do not know where you are going. While you have the light, believe in the light, so that you may become children of light." After Jesus had said this, he departed and hid from them.

I LOVE candles! Anyone who's ever lived with me can tell you that, i've got them everywhere. Besides the ones I have out in my room I have at least 2 shoe boxes/tupperwares filled mostly with tea lights, i've got at least 200. Why you might ask? Well if you've ever been to a lock-in, camp, or metting when i've done worship, you most likely know already.

The light candles give creates a mood. In a worship setting it is very reflective and quiet mood. The soft light seems to affect everyone, yet differently. It calms the most roudy of youth, focuses the group, and prepares them for prayer. I decorate the alter with a few big candles then a tea light or two for everyone who will be at worship (always plan for extra). Making sure they are all over cloth and hopefully two layers or plastic too. When worship begins, i only light the large candles.

First logistics of this~ you can put it anywhere in the service, it works great for a reflective time at the beginning to center the group, or great as a prayer time in the middle or towards the end to meditate or clam down from energetic worship. I ask the group to think of the ways God has been present in their lives and be thankful, as well as things they are praying for in their own lives. Then i invited them to light a candle to represent their prayer. If there is a small group or enough time/candles, I encourage them to light one for a friend as well. In general, soft music allows for people to come up as they are ready, and pray or reflect until everyone is done. **demonstrate how to light the candle by taking an UNlit candle and tipping it upsidedown/sideways into a lit candle** There is also unending ways to explain the importance of this event.

I work with youth often, and began doing this when i was a youth, leading worship for our CCYM meetings for my cousin. Giving an individule something they can claim as theirs gives them ownership, but the little tea lights together make a big light. The little lights add so much more light, a visual analogy to the difference a group can make in the world. Each of us have a light in us, and others see that (even if you don't think so!), but that light by itself is not very strong, and it needs other lights to keep it going strong.

The messiah does remain forever, through his followers, and his light is in us, but we are not him. We can't do it alone. But we shine together!

your sister in Christ~Erin

Serving

Christmas time always gets us in more of a helping/sharing/serving mood. I ran accross this devo and thought it was appropriate for that feeling. I included the whole thing because as wonderful as scripture is I for one have a hard time remembering it, but when linked with a story it makes it easier for me. Happy Holidays!
your sister in Christ~Erin

ideas to serve this season
*bell ring for the salvation army
*angel tree gifts/sponering a family
*serve food at a food kitchen
*coats for kids/mitten trees
*finals care packages for college students
*instead of giving gifts, donate money
*carol at a nursing home
and many many more, check out in your community!

Matthew 25:31-40 (NRSV)

Jesus said, "When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, then he will sit on the throne of his glory. All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats, and he will put the sheep at his right hand and the goats at the left. Then the king will say to those at his right hand, 'Come, you that are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world; for I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, I was naked and you gave me clothing, I was sick and you took care of me, I was in prison and you visited me.' Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when was it that we saw you hungry and gave you food, or thirsty and gave you something to drink? And when was it that we saw you a stranger and welcomed you, or naked and gave you clothing? And when was it that we saw you sick or in prison and visited you?' And the king will answer them, 'Truly I tell you, just as you did it to one of the least of these who are members of my family, you did it to me.'"

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Surely I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for harm, to give you a future with hope.
- Jeremiah 29:11 (NRSV)
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Dan West (1893-1971), a Christian aid worker in Spain during their civil war, agonized over the life-and-death decisions involving the cups of reconstituted milk he gave to starving children. It was never enough, and infants who received no milk died. "These children don't need a cup of milk; they need a cow," he thought. He dreamed of bringing some cows from his native Indiana to hungry people so they could produce their own milk. Then he got another idea: "Why not send pregnant cows, so those who receive the gift of life in the name of Jesus Christ can pass it along to others and become part of the chain?"

When he returned home in 1938, he told dairy farmers in his church about his idea. When World War II ended, West and the others began to ship cows and then sheep, goats, chickens, rabbits, and other animals to people on both sides of the conflict. The idea grew, and many churches joined in.

Since then, millions of animals have been given to people in 128 different countries by the ecumenical organization that West founded - Heifer International. In all those years its mission has remained unchanged - to provide a future with hope by bringing to the hungry a long-term source of food, all in the name of Jesus.

Prayer: Lord of all, help us to serve all. Amen.

THOUGHT FOR THE DAY:
How can I make a difference?

Doubt

Good story, read it carefully!

Matthew 14:22-33 (NRSV)

Immediately he made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead to the other side, while he dismissed the crowds. And after he had dismissed the crowds, he went up the mountain by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone, but by this time the boat, battered by the waves, was far from the land, for the wind was against them. And early in the morning he came walking toward them on the sea. But when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified, saying, "It is a ghost!" And they cried out in fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them and said, "Take heart, it is I; do not be afraid."

Peter answered him, "Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water." He said, "Come." So Peter got out of the boat, started walking on the water, and came toward Jesus. But when he noticed the strong wind, he became frightened, and beginning to sink, he cried out, "Lord, save me!" Jesus immediately reached out his hand and caught him, saying to him, "You of little faith, why did you doubt?" When they got into the boat, the wind ceased. And those in the boat worshiped him, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God."


The typical understanding of this story talks about keeping our focus on God. But recently i heard a different interpretation. When I read this Peter sticks out to be at first as arrogant. Trying to do what Jesus does? But then i remind myself, we all have a different interpretation of Jesus, and Peter's was difiatley different than mine, which is okay! Then as the story goes on I begin to relate to Peter. I want to be like Jesus, maybe not walk on water, but have compassion for all people, serve and love everyone especially the outcasts of society. But here's what catches me, Peter doubted HIS capability. He didn't just take his eyes off of Jesus, he doubted what he could do.

As christians we all believe that God is amazing and powerful. We don't doubt what he can do, we don't really find fault with him. We doubt ourselves and find fault in ourselves saying that we can't possibly do that! It can be anything, not feeling as if we are smart enough, pretty enough, strong enough, a good enough christian, and many many more. Often we begin to feel a call in our lives to do something, possibly for God or possiby just to do something good, to make a difference. But we doubt ourselves.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, talented, and fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of the most high God. Your playing small doesn't serve this world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you..." - Nelson Mandela

Keep your eyes on Jesus not in the mirror. YOU CAN DO IT. You are amazing, not because you try, because God made you that way, with a purpose. Let him use you. Sure it's scary. But nothing good comes without a risk. Trust him and take it!

God Bless!
your sister in Christ~Erin

Energy

I am the youth director at my local church. At the age of 19 (2 weeks from 20) this is a pretty big deal. The city here is at least 50,000. And with 3 United Methodist Churches in town i was amazed that none had a youth program. So i started one. I've been involved with youth leadership for years, since i've been about 12 or 13. Mainly in the annual confrence, but also at my local church I lead our youth, yes as a youth. Some of the biggest challenges for us was finding adults to take us places because you can't stay overnight without one.

Anyhow, the kids here are amazing! Sure it's alot of work to focus their energy, but you can see pure innocence come out of their smiles. They love being at church! We play games, we talk, we have fun. They inspire me as well as try me sometimes. But in general they are awesome and the church staff is so supportive.

I had asked when i returned this fall (being a student, i am a seasonal resident and an avid camp counselor) I told the church staff i wanted to have a lock in for the kids and i wanted to pain the youth room. With months of planning I assured the adults that yes i wanted to do this and it would be okay. The lock in was this past weekend. Recruiting some college friends we spent the night at church. I have 3 groups split by grade levels. One is 3-6, one 7-8, and one 9-12. So everything from about 9 years old through 18. 6th grade on up stayed the night. We had a total of about 30 ppl (w/chaperones). We painted ( i still have it on my hands), we played games, we worshiped, we stayed up late, and we went to church the next day in our pajamas.

The adults i brought with me were amazed in particular with my kids energy. The last ones finally fell over at about 5 am, so we all got at least a little sleep. But all night without sugar or soda they were bouncing off the walls. They had brought friends and were so excited about not having a bedtime, and just being there. The kids from my youth groups made a design and painted on the wall. Their design included their name and a favorite bible verse, otherwise whatever they wanted. And friends helped paint the three other walls a solid color. It was going great, a few minor things, but great. It only took about 2 and a half hours to finish up the room and the kids were painted out. But still full of energy!

Then we played team games! Over the years I have learned it is crucial to get kids to split up. After they are comfortable, challenge their bounderies! So i made 4 groups each of about 5 with a chaperone. I split up my kids and their friends, and everyone was alittle uneasy. But they all made new friends, built a community, and got alittle of that energy focused. Then due to popular request was sardines. The famous lock in game, but can easily be overdone. i only let them play 3 rounds and kept lights on in the basement where i was so when they got scared they could come tell me about it then run and play again (kinda like venting, if they tell you about it they aren't scared anymore!).

Then midnight worship. After a night of super fun activites, painting, games, and sardines when better to remind them why we are here. I love worship. I love doing it, i love planning it. I have learned many types of worship and i've gotten pretty good at reading a group and helping them to worship in a way that they are able to encounter God. Kids after running around all night, need some time to reflect. Direct simply questions to focus on and time. 2 or 3 minutes is pleanty with most jr high kids. So i asked my kids, who are you? We played get to know you games earlier, but who are you? what makes you different? and how does God have anything to do with that? I wanted to show them a clip from Anger Managment, where Dave (Adam Sandler) goes to his first session of anger management and is challenged with that very question. You are not simply your profession, your hobbies, or your personality. Some of the kids shared, and i began to talk. I read a verse from galatians and told them you are god's children. You are his chosen one, he loves you. And no matter what no one can take that identity away from you. He has made you different. Special. embrace that. he will tell you who you are.

Then we sang, and prayed, and i had a tea light for each kid to light one as a prayer.

Then more fun! Late night options inculded sleeping, creation station, movies, or the chat room (also for games). Everyone did eventually sleep, but we were up late! In the morning they spoke in church and it was overall an amazing experience. I'll write more later as i have to get to class but there are two verses that kept me going this weekend.

1 Timothy
Don't let them look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in love, in purity, and in faith. (something like that)

and i'm not sure where this is at the moment:
Even youths grow tired and weary, even young men stumble and fall

your sister in Christ~Erin

Remember

Sometimes i get caught up in my own life and my own problems. I so easily forget all of the things that are happening to my brothers and sisters throughout the world. Remember to pray for those less fortunate than you as well as those facing persecution for following Christ.

In Peace,
Your sister in Christ~Erin

Girl Who Rejected Islam Now Facing False Murder Charges - ASSIST

News Australian media reports that on October 9th, 17-year-old Kaihana Hussain was attacked with a knife by her father, Dr Mohammed Hussain, after she reiterated her commitment to convert from Islam to Christianity. According to the reports, Kaihana's mother was fatally stabbed when she tried to intervene, and her father attempted to kill himself after Kaihana escaped the apartment. Police confirmed at the time that Kaihana was not a suspect. Dr Hussain survived, and now alleges that Kaihana stabbed her mother to death and attempted to murder him because they disapproved of her boyfriend. Kaihana was subsequently arrested and faced a court on November 7, where she was charged with murder and attempted murder. She did not speak and no plea was entered. Kaihana Hussain remains in custody until her trial, which has been slated for May 22, 2007. Pray God will reveal the truth in this matter and Kaihana will be set free.

Matthew 10:26
26"So do not be afraid of them. There is nothing concealed that will not be disclosed, or hidden that will not be made known.

Psalm 40

A Paraphrase of Psalm 40



Holy God, I waited for you.

And waited.

And finally you were there,

bending to hear my cry.

You drew me back

from the edge of the depths,

when I thought I could journey alone.

You held me, calmed me,

steadied my steps on stone.

You've turned my cry into song.

See how they gape at the joy of it!

They call me fool.

But they don't know joy,

or song,

or you.

Wonders tumble from your hands!

Such plans you have for us!

You don't want the ram

caught by its horns in the thicket.

You want me.

So here I am.

Phases

As we go along through our lives we go through phases. Currently I'm in a phase where I don't neccessarily have alot to say, but I like to take in what others say. Here are some great quotes I found on a fellow bloggers page.

quotes

Religion ought not to be a pain reliever. It ought to be a pain inducer that invites us to see the injustice suffered by our neighbors so we might work to alleviate it.

Bishop Gene Robinson


I could not have fought against the discrimination of apartheid and not also fight against the discrimination which homosexuals endure, even in our churches and faith groups. For me, this struggle is a seamless rope.

Bishop Desmond Tutu

**What do you think?

In Peace,
your sister in Christ~Erin

Fun t-shirts

I love fun christian t-shirts. I have a couple awesome ones, how about anyone else?

One of mine says in bold letters on the back

JESUS WAS A LOSER (and so am i) Losers go Home
and goes on to quote Matthew "for those who want to save their lives will lose it, and those who lose their lives for my sake will save it"

then there is the one with the awesome midevil knight on it with the armor of God verse

and the captian planted element one from a YAK (youth annual conference)

and my Garrett Shirt with the swirls and the verse from timothy "don't look down on those who are young, but set an example"

and this one i just found is awesome and I want it!!
(sadly i'm still trying to get it to show up) check out www.randomshirts.com

In Peace,
your sister in Christ~Erin

fellowship

Fellowship is a big fancy word for hang out with your fellow believers. Many of our churches have fellowship halls, fellowship time after church, or use the word frequently to mean, come hang out at church. I think this is a very important thing to do. Most of us love to hang out with friends, we don’t often think why. The bible mentions in a few places that it is really important to hang out with people like you. Those around you will rub off on you. Here in 1st John we are told to hang out together by Paul…
1 John 1:7
But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all [ Or every] sin.

Yet we are also warned that as good as it is to surround our selves with friends, it is important that we have Christian friends.
2 Corinthians 6:14
Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?

I find this a little troublesome, yet partly true. What do you think? It is really important to have people around you who can support you spiritually. Who can pray for you, go to church with you, and be there for you when you need it. But where do you draw the line? Some churches look down upon marriages between faiths, even between denominations. What do you think “yoked” means?

Discussion Questions:
What if anything from your friends has rubbed off on you?
Do you seek friends that are of the same faith as you?
Do you have friends of other faiths than you?
How do you feel about relationships of different faiths?

Egypt

As a young girl I found this troubling. Pray for those in the world less fortunate than you! I also praise God for living in a safe country where I am free to believe in him. God Bless!

Peace,
your sister in Christ~Erin

Christian Girl Kidnapped by Muslims Escapes - Compass Direct
An Egyptian Christian teenager escaped her Muslim kidnappers last week hours after they had drugged her on a public bus. They threatened to rape her and convert her to Islam if her family did not leave their Nile Delta city of El-Mahala el-Kobra. Laurence Wagih Emil, 15, escaped the ground-floor room where she was being held in Cairo's southern Helwan suburb at 10 p.m. last Tuesday (October 3) while her captors were away breaking their Ramadan fast. Her father, Wagih Emil, had received several threatening text messages from his daughter's mobile phone. "Take the rest of your daughters and leave the city, or you will lose them one by one," said one. "The girl is not accepting easily, but she will embrace Islam for sure." Before family members recovered her, State Security Investigation officials interviewing Laurence Emil told her she would never see her parents again unless she reported a false story denying the kidnapping. The kidnapping of Christian teenage girls in Muslim nations has reached into the thousands. Pray for VOM's safe houses where Christian teenage girls, who have been threatened with or have escaped from abduction, can learn job skills and receive spiritual training. Psalm 143:9

Christian Blogsphere

There is so much out there, I can read for hours and not get bored. I encourage you to check out some more blogs, comment, make friends, ya know. I can't figure out how to link the methodist blogroll, but we're on it!!

Go visit
www.welselyblog.com and you'll find a new world of blogging!

Peace,
your sister in Christ~Erin

Outreach

Matthew 28:18 -20 (The Message)
Jesus, undeterred, went right ahead and gave his charge: "God authorized and commanded me to commission you: Go out and train everyone you meet, far and near, in this way of life, marking them by baptism in the threefold name: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Then instruct them in the practice of all I have commanded you. I'll be with you as you do this, day after day after day, right up to the end of the age."

Everyone you meet? I mean I love Jesus, but the great commission isn't something we like to draw attention to all the time. I was discussing with my campus chaplin yesterday how our baby ministry is going. We are having a hard time getting people into the house. Hm... I thought, this rings a bell, we are having a hard time getting people into our churches as well!

But how do we change that? Outreach? Well to do outreach you need people, and we only have 3, but we have 3. Most of our churches have more that this but the problem still occurs. What kinds of things do we do? Who do we aim for? The unchurched? Young people? acording to Matthew, Jesus said everyone. Period.

yet, there always seems to be a but. Most often I run into, but they already go to a bible study or another church. Or many other excuses. So many of our church events focus on the people already in the church. Not saying this is bad, because helping our members grow in their faith is a huge responsibility as well, but what about the people outside the church?

How do we get people (in my case) accross the street and to the ministry house?
we already offer free food
How do we feed people if they aren't there?
How do we make disciples???

God Bless,
your sister in Christ,
Erin

The same table

As many of us do, I often find myself totally swamped but so busy i'm running from here to there all the time. Especially on Sundays. I am musical, so often I am asked to help out with services. My friend Pious asked me to help him with yesterdays service, as he was having a real hard time putting things together. I have already commited to my church, and yeserday I was the only soprano. But I told him I would help. I made both services and recieved many thanks and compliments from each, but I was not fed.

It was world communion sunday, so literally yes i was fed, but I was not able to really worship or spend time honoring God. So like i sometimes do, I went to Mass. I know i'm not Catholic, and they don't want ppl who aren't catholic to take communion simply because it is one of the biggest doctrinal issues between Catholics and Prodestants. But I needed to take it. No big deal, but I laughed a lil bit when i went up and Father Mark happened to be giving communion in my section and he recognized me. Our campus priest is one of the best speakers I have ever heard, and one of the funniest religious leaders I have ever been around. I have spent some time with him, enough that we have had the communion conversation as well as he knows I am on the path to be a UM pastor. Defiately remembered I wasn't Catholic.

But the one thing stressed yesterday was that on World Communion Sunday we celebrate with Christians all over the world our salvation in Jesus. Sure each of the traditions do it a bit differently, each of the churches I took communion at yesterday was a bit different, but that we can celebrate the sacrifice of our Lord together is awesome. That we can eat around the same table. It also gives us a reminder to pray for each other.

Luke 22:19-20
19And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, "This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me."
20In the same way, after the supper he took the cup, saying, "This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you.

Pray for our fellow Christians today all over the world as they celebrate or suffer as we all do.
God Bless!
your sister in Christ,
Erin

Personal

You never know what may cause them.
The sight of the Atlantic Ocean can do it, or a piece of music, or a face you’ve never seen before.
A pair of somebody’s old shoes can do it … a horse cantering across a meadow,
the high school basketball team running out onto the floor at the start of a game.
You can never be sure.

But of this you can be sure.
Whenever you find tears in your eyes,
especially unexpected tears,
it is well to pay the closest attention.
They are not only telling you something about the secret of who you are,
but more often than not God is speaking to you through them of the mystery of where you have come from
and is summoning you to where you should go next, if your soul is to be saved.
~ I found this very touching and wanted to share it with you all.
your sister in Christ,
Erin

Rules from God

Rules from God for 2006
1. Wake Up!! Decide to have a good day. "Today is the day the Lord hath made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." Psalms 118:24

2. Dress Up!! The best way to dress up is to put on a smile. A smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks. "The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at outward appearance; but the Lord looks at the heart." I Samuel 16:7

3. Shut Up!! Say nice things and learn to listen. God gave us two ears and one mouth, so He must have meant for us to do twice as much listening as talking "He who guards his lips guards his soul." Proverbs 13:3

4. Stand Up!!... For what you believe in. Stand for something or you will fall for anything.. "Let us not be weary in doing good; for at the proper time, we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good..." Galatians 6:9-10

5. Look Up!!... To the Lord.
"I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

6. Reach Up!!... For something higher. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, And He will direct your path."
Proverbs 3:5-6

7. Lift Up!!... Your Prayers.
"Do not worry about anything; instead PRAY ABOUT EVERYTHING."
Philippians 4:6

Send this to the people you care about.
I thought this was mighty special, just like you.
Pass this on and brighten someone's day, and remember:

God answers Knee-Mail.

hungry?

As many of you know, I am now living in a house owned by the Wesley Foundation. I do have a title as a peer minister, but it would be hard for me to not be involved in the ministry that goes on in the house. Our ministry is called Crossroads and we are a small group, mostly prodestants, who are just getting started as a newer group.

We serve a meal a week and so this Tuesday was our first. We were so excited, cooking, preparing, making flyers and a big posterboard, it was great. Granted we only had a few people those people are coming back (if anything for the excellent Methodist food!). And as I've been thinking about all this and talking about it the thing that kept coming out of my mouth when talking to people was "come for lunch". And i've begun to wonder what i want to attract people to our house. I mean food is great and a great way to bring in college students. . . but isn't sharing faith more important?

One of the things we offer is a weekly online bible study. Going with the theme of food, i thought it would be great to throw light on the idea of feeding the spirit. We all know how important it is to feed our bodies. When we don't, we get sick, we don't have enough energy, sometimes to the point where people faint. Our spirits are the same way. We all have a hunger inside of us for more. For truth. Many times i know i have fed that hunger with quick fixes. Throwing things at my spirit that don't really satisfy it. Kinda like junk food. It does the trick for a very small time, but eventually just makes you more hungry.

Without knowing it we hunger for God. Many times we find ways to supress this hunger, but it's still there. We long to be "complete", little do we know that there is nothing but daily time with God that can really "hit the spot". Sometimes we get a great feast at a weekend retreat, or a week at camp, even sunday church services. We leave feeling God's presence and our spirit feels good. However one meal, even a great feast doesn't last forever. We need to feed our spiritual self daily just as we feed our physical selves.

I know that i struggle with finding time each day and i have covered that in some of my other posts, but i again encourage you to find an accountability partner and work together. We are all a family in Christ, here to love and support each other.

I had a hard time finding verses that fit exactly what I was looking for, but here are two good ones. God Bless!

Exodus 16:4 (The Message)
God said to Moses, "I'm going to rain bread down from the skies for you. The people will go out and gather each day's ration. I'm going to test them to see if they'll live according to my Teaching or not. On the sixth day, when they prepare what they have gathered, it will turn out to be twice as much as their daily ration."

2 Chronicles 13:10 (The Message)
"But for the rest of us in Judah, we're sticking with God. We have not traded him in for the latest model—we're keeping the tried-and-true priests of Aaron to lead us to God and the Levites to lead us in worship by sacrificing Whole-Burnt-Offerings and aromatic incense to God at the daily morning and evening prayers, setting out fresh holy bread on a clean table, and lighting the lamps on the golden Lampstand every night. We continue doing what God told us to in the way he told us to do it; but you have rid yourselves of him.

your sister in Christ,
Erin

School starts again!

Well I have returned to a world where internet exists!

Summer camp was amazing and i have a million and three stories for anyone who'd like to hear them, i'm sure a few will come up in future posts.

I would like to ask again if anyone would like to help with the posting. I have lots of resources, many of which are online, and putting together devotionals is a great way to help one establish for themselves what they really believe. I am also asking for help because this blog gets to be a bit much for one person to keep up.

God Bless!
your sister in Christ
~Erin

Support

Sometimes I feel needy. . . do you ever feel that way? I know I need something, but I'm too afraid or too proud to ask. We all need friends. True, close, honest friends. The ones who you know don't mind a phone call at 2 am, or in the middle of class because you need them. But why do i feel sometimes afraid to ask? We all say, call anytime. . . stop in anytime. . . don't worry about it. . . but do we question comments like these? I love this poem:

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow,
don't walk behind me, i may not lead,
Just walk beside me and be my friend. -Camus

Many times I can't articulate my needs. Many times we don't think it's important enough to bother anyone about. Many times, i'm scared they will freak out. God offers constant support, is always there, and will always be there. But the thing I like about this poem is that i'm not asking you anything. I am answering your question. YOU asked, where do you want me? I guess that's how i view most relationships. I know what I want to get out of it, I know what i need to get out of it, but what about you? what do you want? Do you truely want to help, or just be around? God always says, I want to help you through this, how do you need me. Well . .. i need support. We all do. I encourage every Christian to create a support group amoung them. Wesley used to organize groups he labled classes. You had to go, and you had to share. You were help accountable. Create a space where you are comfortable and find people who will keep you accountable. We need support to grow, or we will crumble. God Bless!

Ecclesiastes 4:11-12
11 Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?
12 Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

Your sister in Christ,
Erin

Schedule God too

I know I've been busy, but being sick last week (hospital sick) kinda reminded me of an old lesson sometimes i just haven't learned yet. Schedule God too. So often I get so busy, often with things i try to explain as "out of my control" and i simply run out of time. Homework, church, music things, finacial things, work, all of these things take time and often demand the time I have, but I do the deciding and in the end it is me who gives my time. When I don't give enough time for God every day, i find myself slipping. Maybe it's not a big deal today, or tomorrow, or even next week, but in a month or two months i soon find I have left my God time for church.

You can't expect to meet God at church if we do not meet him daily. We gather at church to celebrate God's godness, to tell him, hey - you are amazing and i thank you for that. If we don't have him in our lives not only do we fall apart but we can't say "God you're amazing" truely, we don't really know him. And the refocusing doesn't happen, nor do we feel better. Church becomes another thing on our to do list. We are missing the joy and the goodness. We are missing the hugs and the refreshment our souls need. When I forget this, and i miss it, my body fights on for awhile, then bad things pile up. All the sudden it just seems like everything is due and nothing is done. My soul just isn't feed, and I am not in an attitude to let God help. I must do it. This is pride. Then i fall. Most often it is me getting sick (like i was last week) where I am forced for at least a day to rest. Sometimes it is me relapsing to some of my old "bad habits". Stress coping things i used to do, my cutting, or my ED (eating disorder), things that I can control when I feel my world out of control.

I am coming into this monday head on, ready and rested with God by my side. Writing my schedule for the week, and including prayer and quiet time with God. Make sure you smile alot, and take the time to rest with God.

Manna and Quail

While the Israelites were in the desert they could not find food and water. Many complained to Moses and Aaron saying "at least in Egypt we had food and water!" Then God said to Moses, "I will rain down bread from Heaven for you. Have the people go out and collect enough for each day and on the 6th day gather enough for two days." The people still grumbled for meat. So the Lord said "at twlight you will eat meat and in the morning you will be filled with bread." In the evening wuail came and covered the camp, in the morning there was a layer of dew around the camp. When the dew was gone thin flakes like frost on the ground appeared on the desert floor. The Israelites were confused until Moses said it is the bread from the LORD. Take enough for each in your tent. No more or less, none is to be saved (except for the sabbath day). The bread was called manna and tasted like wafers made with honey. Moses had Aaron take some and put it in a jar to keep for future generations.

Manna meant "what is it?" and quail migrate around the sinai penisula resting on the ground or in bushes making them easy to capture. It is amazing how God provided for the people even after their grumblings. Also his system eliminated greed. Just a heart warming story.

God Bless,
your sister in Christ, Erin

Chronological Order

I think sometimes the wordiness of the old testement gets us confused so i decided to try and abbreviate the things we generally highlight through the Exodus.

Creation
Adam and Eve
expelled from the garden
Cain and Able
Noah and the flood
Abrah and Sari- Abraham and Sarah
Hagar - Ishmael
Sarah - Issac
Issac and Rebeka
Jacob and Esau (Jacob gets the blessing)
Jacob has 12 sons - youngest being Joseph
Joseph gets sold to Egypt
becomes adviser to the king
when Jacob dies, Joseph brings his family into Egypt (about 70)
350 years later a new Pharoh (unaware of Joseph) decides to enslave the Hebrews in fear of a revolt
Murder of the boy infants
Moses, escape, grows up in palace, goes into wilderness, burning bush, exodus
40 years in wilderness
10 commandments
then we come up to Leviticus

so that is my overview of Genesis and Exodus covering the main stories, but sometimes we get confused of how they all relate to each other

God Bless,
your sister in Christ~Erin

Dinah

Interesting story. . . ( found in Genesis 34)

So Dinah was one of Jacob's and Leah's daughters. (Abraham- Issac- Jacob)
When Jacob and his family were in Shechem in the land of Cannan. They had been traveling around and Dinah went out to meet some of the other women in the area. While she was out a guy named Shechem saw her and fell in love with her. He violated her and then asked his father to get her as his wife. Jacob found out and soon did Dinah's brothers. When Shechem's father came to ask for Dinah as a wife for his son they agreed only if the men of the city would be circumcised. They agreed and all became circumcised. 3 days later, while all the men were still in pain, two of Dinah's brothers, Simeon and Levi, went into the city and killed every male. The looted where their sister ad been defiled and took flocks and herds, donkeys and anything else they could find out to the fields. They carried off all of their wealth and their women and children as they left. Jacob yelled at his sons for bringing him trouble in this new land knowing that those left in Cannan could band together and kill him and his family. His sons replied, "Should he have treated our sister like a prostitute?"

So family revenge? We aren't really told how Dinah feels about this whole mess. . . just that he charmed her. So alot can be see in this story. . . even without God's view on the story. We see alittle more of humanity here. . . we get angry, we do things we may regret later. We are protective of our family members.

Then I always try to think with a little historical perspective. Think towards the end, the brothers looted and took the animals, wealth, and women and children. Women and children and just thrown in their like donkeys, someones property to be taken. Yet the whole story brought about because of a woman.

These are the stories that i find facinating. . . why is it here in the bible? What does it offer us today? or even. . . how much has been exaggerated over the years until someone wrote the story down? Is it possible that the two brothers killed every male in a city? I'd love to know what you think.

God Bless,
your sister in Christ~Erin

Tower of Babel

Many of us have heard many different stories with pieces resembling the story of the tower of babel. Many dismiss it as a simple legend however I believe that the story was kept because it has a good lesson to learn. (The tower of Babel occured after the great flood. )

Genesis 11

The Tower of Babel
1 Now the whole world had one language and a common speech. 2 As men moved eastward, [a] they found a plain in Shinar [b] and settled there.
3 They said to each other, "Come, let's make bricks and bake them thoroughly." They used brick instead of stone, and tar for mortar. 4 Then they said, "Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves and not be scattered over the face of the whole earth."
5 But the LORD came down to see the city and the tower that the men were building. 6 The LORD said, "If as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them. 7 Come, let us go down and confuse their language so they will not understand each other."
8 So the LORD scattered them from there over all the earth, and they stopped building the city. 9 That is why it was called Babel [c] —because there the LORD confused the language of the whole world. From there the LORD scattered them over the face of the whole earth.

So, challenging. The idea that we as humans are capable of working together is a warming idea, but the idea that God didn't want us to work together. . . is harder to swallow. Granted the intent of the tower was prideful. . . showing God that we something. Any thoughts?

Cain and Abel

Well I thought we better get an overview, maybe understand a little bit more about biblical history along with stories. I know this is late, but forgive me, college life is crazy.

I thought we could start with Cain and Abel, seeing as most of us are roughly familiar with their parents, but not so much them. Cain and Able were the children of Adam and Eve. The story is found in Genesis Chapter 4.

Genesis 4
Cain and Abel

1 Adam [a] lay with his wife Eve, and she became pregnant and gave birth to Cain. [b] She said, "With the help of the LORD I have brought forth [c] a man." 2 Later she gave birth to his brother Abel.
Now Abel kept flocks, and Cain worked the soil. 3 In the course of time Cain brought some of the fruits of the soil as an offering to the LORD. 4 But Abel brought fat portions from some of the firstborn of his flock. The LORD looked with favor on Abel and his offering, 5 but on Cain and his offering he did not look with favor. So Cain was very angry, and his face was downcast.
6 Then the LORD said to Cain, "Why are you angry? Why is your face downcast? 7 If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it."
8 Now Cain said to his brother Abel, "Let's go out to the field." [d] And while they were in the field, Cain attacked his brother Abel and killed him.
9 Then the LORD said to Cain, "Where is your brother Abel?"
"I don't know," he replied. "Am I my brother's keeper?"
10 The LORD said, "What have you done? Listen! Your brother's blood cries out to me from the ground. 11 Now you are under a curse and driven from the ground, which opened its mouth to receive your brother's blood from your hand. 12 When you work the ground, it will no longer yield its crops for you. You will be a restless wanderer on the earth."
13 Cain said to the LORD, "My punishment is more than I can bear. 14 Today you are driving me from the land, and I will be hidden from your presence; I will be a restless wanderer on the earth, and whoever finds me will kill me."
15 But the LORD said to him, "Not so [e] ; if anyone kills Cain, he will suffer vengeance seven times over." Then the LORD put a mark on Cain so that no one who found him would kill him. 16 So Cain went out from the LORD's presence and lived in the land of Nod, [f] east of Eden.

Sibling rivalry, something many of us can relate to. . . but here in an extreme. Other things brought out in the story are jealousy, anger management, and punishment. Abel brought to God the best of his labors while Cain simply brought "some fruit". God was pleased with Abel for sacrificing his best for him, but not so much with Cain who just kinda gave God some stuff because he was suppose to. The intent, not the quantity, was the problem. God knew their hearts. He didn't plan on punishing Cain for not sacrificing the best of his crop, he just wan't very happy with him. Because of this though Cain gets angry.

This is the ironic part. Cain doesn't do his best but Abel does, so who suffers? Abel. His brother is jealous that God is pleased with him and blames it on his brother, not his lack of effort to please God. So he does his worst, he kills the object that he sees as an obstacle between him and God. To me this says something about conquering our fears, not simply destroying them. Learning to work with the problems in life. The punishment that Cain recieves brings this idea home. He gave him a new challenge. Cain wasn't able to be killed and wasn't able to work the land, and as much as this may seem like a terrible thing the Lord gave him mercy. And protection.

So all in all, an interesting story which has much to tell and teach about. Jealousy, sibling rivalry, and mercy.

God Bless you and yours,
your sister in Christ~Erin

Obscure Stories

I find the best way i learn is through stories, i can remember them and relate while learning a lesson. Therefore i thought we could look at some stories for the next month from the bible for our devotionals.

The bible is full of stories, most of them from the old testament. We do not study these stories much anymore, they are not often taught. Stories of the prophets, judges, and many others. Inspirational stories such as Ruth and Naomi, brotherly love and loyalty such as in David and Johnathon, and stories of courage like Ester or Joshua.

These stories give us strength, courage, and hope. They help us to better understand the personality of God as best we can. Pray for guidance and understanding as we go more indepth into studing the bible.

2 Chronicles 1:10-12
10 Give me wisdom and knowledge, that I may lead this people, for who is able to govern this great people of yours?"

11 God said to Solomon, "Since this is your heart's desire and you have not asked for wealth, riches or honor, nor for the death of your enemies, and since you have not asked for a long life but for wisdom and knowledge to govern my people over whom I have made you king, 12 therefore wisdom and knowledge will be given you. And I will also give you wealth, riches and honor, such as no king who was before you ever had and none after you will have."

God Bless,
your sister in Christ~Erin

Temptations

As humans we all sin. The problem arises for me when i fall into temptation and the same old ways. The same old sins that drag me down. Then i feel guilty and on top of that beat myself up. God understands that as humans we have temptations and advises us on how to fight them.

Luke 22:46
"Why are you sleeping?" he asked them. "Get up and pray so that you will not fall into temptation."

Don't ignore them. . . acknowledge that they are there. And learn to recognize them.

1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

Temptation is not a problem only some of us face, ALL of us have temptations. There are not different levels of sins, we all fall and do wrong. We therefore all need to learn to defense against it.

Mark 14:38
"Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak."

Matthew 6:13
'And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one. '

Matthew 4:1
[ The Temptation of Jesus ]" Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the desert to be tempted by the devil."

Jesus again sets a great example of how we can prepare ourselves. He spent 40 days (a sacred period) preparing for his ministry and during that time we get the story of how he was tempted by the devil (see Matthew chapter 4). He prayed, and he spent time preparing himself. He knew the scriptures and he used his knowledge to fight off temptations. We need to study so that we have the knowledge to fight our temptations. There will always be hard times in life but it's having the hope that comes with Jesus and the stories of Gods love and mercy that will help us live through them.

God Bless,
your sister in Christ~ Erin

Loss

life is a series of events- good, bad, and indifferent. I have recently experienced the bad in the loss of a friend. Crystal and i graduated from high school together and coming from a small school that means we knew each other well growing up. The news was a huge shock. A car accident. An event that happens in life. I went home for the funeral and grieved with my friends. It was hard and as we all do when faced with difficult times in life we ask God - WHY?

But we can't find the answer. Sometimes it seems to come to us later in life, sometimes not. It's hard to imagine a good reason for a person to die. The old question, why do bad things happen to good people?? There is never really an answer, or an answer we can understand. We can not even try to understand the mind of God, the reasonings that he has. But we always try. We always search, and sometimes that search almost destroys us.

We all have a emptiness inside of us, a whole that we need filled. We spend much of out lives searching for what's missing and loss adds to the hurt and pain of emptiness. However there is only one thing that will fill our emptiness and it's God. He also tends to be the one we blame our pain upon. This does not make us very open to him.

Faith in God's grace and love gives us hope for a better world. We trust in his promises that he is good and his plan is not to harm us but for us to prosper and give us hope and a future. As hard as it is to accept the pain caused by loss God offers us comfort and love instead of a world of sorrow and bitterness. We many not be able to understand his plan now, but through our faith we trust that he is the way and the life.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

God Bless,
your sister in Christ~Erin

Food!

So there was a very cute little skit done in my church today to "advertise" for the youth's sub sale for Super Bowl sunday. The boy was sad because the Packers weren't in the Super bowl but the girl set him straight by reminding him Super Bowl sunday was NOT about football - but about food! (Which is funny knowing how methodist gatherings are very often about food!) So the point of the skit was to get people to think about food on super bowl sunday instead of foodball and buy that food from the youth.

I chuckled just at all the old jokes we used to make about if there is food the people will come. We all need food, we all like food. . . but lets go back to that we all need food. Our physical bodies need food for strength. When we don't get it we get hungry. Our spiritual bodies are the same way - we need food for strength. Where does one get food for the spirit?

Food for the spirit is found in many ways. I find that it is most important to get a regular daily schedule going. A time set aside, 5-20 min a day. Time to quiet, time to read, time to pray. Everyone has their own ways to relax and have God time. I like to write personally but one can draw, sing, paint, meditate, take a walk, or a million other things. Reading scripture should be a part of these quiet times. Here is some scriptural wisdom:

1 Peter 2
1Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind. 2Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, 3now that you have tasted that the Lord is good.

Jude 1:19-20
20But you, dear friends, build yourselves up in your most holy faith and pray in the Holy Spirit. 21Keep yourselves in God's love as you wait for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ to bring you to eternal life.

1 Timothy 4:7-8
7Have nothing to do with godless myths and old wives' tales; rather, train yourself to be godly. 8For physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come.

Just as we feed our physical bodies we must feed our spirits. We are not accustomed to feeding them but many of us feel an emptiness that can only be filled with God. We can't just fill it with God once a week, we need to feed our spririts everyday. I highly recommend having an accountabilty partner or group. I'll do another blog on that one though. Remember however the importance of feeding your spirit. We all experience some of that emptiness that can only be filled with God's love.

God Bless,
your sister in Christ~Erin